From Penguins to Personal Power: How a Life-Changing Trip Revealed the Path to My True Self

7 Years ago, I had no idea my life was about to change only months later. The journey my soul knew I needed and the one I was the most resistant to.

When these picture of my trip to Australia popped up as memories today. I remember this trip oh so well. This is one of the spots in Australia where you can see the penguins.

I remember sitting on the beach around sunset awaiting the penguins to come in. It was pretty quiet a little cool and super magical as they started to arrive.

They started to arrive on the beach slowly (sorry no videos were taken of that experience, its coming from memory alone) Just a few brave ones to pass the crowds of people. As they started to arrive you could hear the other penguins calling for their mates. It truly was one of the most beautiful things I have witnessed.

To our ears the calls to the penguins may sound so similar, but the penguins at the nests and the ones arriving at the beach start to call for each other. And when they notice their partners chirps, you can hear the excitement in their sounds. As they approach and get closer the excitement grows. They navigate through the brush to their next and their partner. As they bump chests and bask in each other. I can't remember how long they will be out to sea to catch dinner but the homecoming is one of the most magical times.

I didn't realize how social penguins are. Once they take a little time for themselves (it's a B line to their partner) and settle in - it's social hour. Time to catch up with the other families. I left that evening feeling so blissed out. So grateful to have had this amazing experience, that still brings tears to my eyes. One day, I look forward to taking my children to experience the wonders of the world.

However, what happened after this experience, ROCKED my entire world. Despite doing amazing in my career, my choices in my partner - were not sooo good. My partner at that time was supposed to meet me in Australia (I secretly hoped this would give his gambling addiction a break and he would see what true happiness was) I booked his trip on my points, and he was to meet me in a few days.

HOWEVER, it wasn't going to be simple. Just before his flight I find out he might not even be able to get into Australia because he had been to prison for something in his past. Young, naive Christin who saw the potential in him and not his actions was just "hoping" she would be the one who saved him.

Luckily, he arrived and made it through customs, even though he was moody we had a great weekend in Port Douglas diving the Great Barrier reef and going to a Cane Toad Racing event. But when I had to finish my work duties - he found a place to gamble. And he wasn't happy when he gambled.

So when I finished my work and had more time to spend with him before going back to the US...he was MOODY. I lost all emotional control and told him if he was so unhappy in Australia without me he should leave. And he packed up everything of his up and left me that night, while using more of my points to fly home early. How Delta let that happen I will never know...but he got home (to my home). I was at the Sydney Zoo when I saw the delta confirmation.

My heart was shattered. This was our first actual "fight" and he just left. I was broken and flew home early as well. But my logical brain was not working correctly. Even after all this, I allowed him to stay in my life. I forgave him for his outburst, I just couldn't lose him. We had plans for a big life together...

And then my own judgement of myself started, the shame the guilt piled on and I hid parts of myself to not make him angry, upset. I sacrificed my own well being for a few good days (when he would win bets)

It honestly helped me do really well at work - it was a great distraction. But home life - was not sooo good. There were ups and downs, but I was emotionally numbing myself with working out, work, drinking and vegging out with TV. Life wasn't the best - but it was comfortable.

There was a major event that happened in his downward spiral that left me crying on the bathroom floor. I honestly didn't know what else to do and that left me begging for couples counseling. I couldn't take it anymore. We made it to one session together and I knew I was finally ready to leave him. Logically I knew I shouldn't have been in that relationship for a long time, yet I felt so connected to him. I still love that it is easy for me to forgive, but at that time I didn't know the boundaries I needed to not allow that in my life anymore. You can still love someone and not love their behavior and actions. You can still love someone and not allow them to be in your life.

It took months of working with a coach and a therapist - but this experience is what allowed me to see the bigger community and life I am here to be a part of. One that gets sooo excited to see our partners and celebrate the community just like the penguins. One that changes the vibration and frequency of the planet.

While I didn't love the experiences at the time they happened. I am SOOOO grateful. Change doesn't happen when we are comfortable. They happen when it's so uncomfortable, and that's what needed to happen for me. Thank you to this person for playing this role in my life for a lesson I so desperately needed in this lifetime.

I am grateful to be on the other side of this now, to be able to see the holes in the frequency fields, the holes that were in my emotions, that past lives that brought us together and the ways to clear the debris in the way, bringing me to this life that I have here now.

No matter what you are navigating, you are not the only one. What you see on social media - you only know a sliver of their past. I share this story with you, so you know it was not all rainbows. Logically I knew I shouldn't have done a lot of things, but my soul chose otherwise.

If you are ready to step out of a pattern of self sabotage, know you are ready for more out of this life whatever that desire may be.

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